Poetry & Me
The relationship is more than Intimacy
Growing up in China,
Mother language somehow always stays in the way
In My most unconscious way
Whenever I go out on a date with English.
For years,
Every time before opening my mouth, prepared to talk
There’s a formula in mind
It’s like a little factory assembly line
Chinese In- Translating - Grammar Check- On Repeat- Complete
Funny,
Sometimes I wonder if to anyone it’s the same
Perhaps it’s just me with my OCD and perfectionist personality.
“The factory” established ten years ago when I first arrived U.S.A.
When I realized how different speaking English in America is from reading through Chinese textbooks.
The ultimate answer to ‘HOW ARE YOU?’
Is not “Fine, Thank You, And You?”
At the beginning I was quiet, I talked slow.
Everyone thought I was shy and introvert.
But No.
I was building this formula for my assembly line.
Today, Same formula still in use.
After Ten years of nonstop running
I was able to deliver way much faster.
Only side effects would be some heart racing and face blushing.
Occasional blood flow
WRAPPING UP ON PART I
The learning of English is a rather fascinating process to me.
My real English vocabulary input started along with “The Factory” establishment.
I call it a fascinating experience because
Unlike a little baby learning mother language through senses in family oriented environment.
I learned words with more emotional intensity
through Life-changing enlightening moments and heart-breaking Traumatic Experiences Without families around.
PLUS
like all the creatives,
I'm quite specific.
Which made my learning of English rather personal.
Words added to my English dictionary contain high emotional values
which are usually unlikely to be sensed by others when in use
WRAPPING UP ON PART II
An extraordinary tree over 200 years old in a national park for example
I would hug her, touch her, feel her heart beats
Then tearing unconsciously when having to leave.
Because 99 out of 100 usually couldn't feel what I feel,
I talk less, write more
Writing poems has become my way of expressing.
In-between designed structural lines,
I found
Sensation
Connection
Through Elaboration
I gained
Total liberation
IT'S A WRAP
